Hawthorn Love (10)

 A row over a few days, are calm, even the quiet autumn began to believe not what happened, probably Zhigang is really an honest man, the youngest did not say yes to go out, not really that out, how much confidence she has some.

heart relatively stable, and quiet autumn began to help Zhigang knit, she visually a bit Zhigang chest height to play a needle, selected a more rugged but well woven flowers to began to weave together, like to catch before going knit,Discount UGG boots, woven into it every day to sleep late.

aunt saw it, he said: br>
Jingqiu one, more and more organizations want to catch before the walk over, avoid leaving a tail, after the bye Zhigang have. The strange thing is, she not afraid of people misunderstood what she told Zhigang, she thought that I am afraid they have Zhigang, that time she could not promise him to hurt him.

One day, Aunt two people engaged in small talk with the quiet autumn, autumn and talk about her mother in poor health Static, often urinating blood, but can not find the reason. Doctors always the certificates,UGG boots clearance, so that her mother bought walnuts and sugar to eat, that can cure hematuria, my mother ate very effective. However, tight supplies of walnut candy is, even if a medical certificate, not readily available.

Boyle said: says, happy dead. Blood in the urine of the problems her mother has been a long time, what prescription are tried, playing chicken blood needle, waved therapy, etc., as long as the methods do not spend a lot of money, have tried, but they are useless. In severe cases, urine tests sent as red as blood.

she immediately Paoqu Wen sister. Sister said: bring you some back. inconvenient, can not get the mountains outside to sell, say now 'cutting the tail of capitalism', with plots on hills, private plots can not wait to take it back, where also to sell walnuts? autumn girl, our family when you have to take their own side, and As long as your mother's illness can be cured, you are all down to the ground to a tree does not matter. , you're free to help me write a letter to your house - and I find time to get their own. My mother did not cure the disease, I'm afraid that one day her blood done - > After a few days, Zhigang referred to a basket of room to fall quiet, and said: Jingqiu a look, is full of a basket of walnuts, and she stared, is it he ran to her sister told her parents get back?

She gave her tolerance and forbearance for a long time only then go back tears. She had made a vow, and said that this life do not shed a tear as she shed many tears of a child, well aware of tears does not help. She aspired to be a strong person, because my brother and dad in the country, my mother in poor health, five years younger than her sister, she is the mainstay of the family, so she's slogan is: blood sweat no tears.

she rushes to find Zhigang, would like to ask it how it is. She looked for a while, see Zhigang, sitting on mountain house (side) for dinner. She walked over and stood there, watching his breathing to eat, like a hungry the same.

she asked:

Jingqiu looked at his feet, that have gone broke a pair of shoes, toes exposed. She said nothing, just stare Look at shoes. He saw, up the shoes off, and stepped on the foot to go, shame to say: hold back and asked: go, you can also half a work - Even though the others small, he would eat with walnut doors. I'm squeamish, but not into the city, what to wear shoes - foundation has been worn out, can not fill, and had to put it back.

She stood there dumbfounded, if this situation by the Zhigang, after what means also? But she eventually decided to accept this basket of walnuts, because the disease can cure her mother. K City Second Hospital, a Chinese medicine named Ouyang Jing Qiu mother always said that the disease is mainly bad life, the body dragged Void, and with ideological burden, will not cause this to hematuria. If we lived better, more cheerful thought, disease may get better, and eat nutritious walnut sugar is mainly about.

Ouyang doctor said she believed that because her mother feel good, not how sick. Why worry every time to worry about, or work too tired to hematuria. Walnut candy eating, hematuria stopped.

her back room, crouched in that big basket of walnuts before, a one to touch, there may be twenty kilos of it, if by a medical certificate, you may want to buy a dozen so much proof , but also a lot of money. Walnuts may be because those who are new, fresh than to buy a lot of the city. Town to buy those walnuts, often broke down completely empty only to find out, which the kernel has become like a wrinkled black paper. Each one of these nuts are so fresh looking, heavy in his hand, and certainly not dry out the.

she wish it was now put this walnut sent back to the basket to eat her mother, but she still thought of candy for the job can not be bought without a doctor's certificate sugar, and doctors to only a few plus hematuria proved when the sugar before it is prepared to open, open the certificate does not necessarily have the goods.

she thought, the basket enough to eat while her mother, her sister will die happy, because her sister hit the walnut favorite. It will drop walnut sister, she erected the walnut, with a small hammer to drop slightly at the top, gently smashing, walnut shell to break open to all sides, the walnut meat to complete standing there. Sometimes there are smashed, and his sister with a needle to carefully pick out, smash the rock sugar together and brought them to her mother to eat.

but each time refused to eat her mother, two sisters called them to eat, says her mother body does not matter, nothing would happen, you both are still very small, longer body, you eat. The sisters say good astringent mouth of Walnut, do not eat.

Jingqiu crouched there thinking for a while, I feel Zhigang nice to her. Ever heard the old society to save the mother's story of Daughters of bondage, she felt that he could understand. In that time, a girl, in addition to selling her own, there would be no other way to save the mother?

fact, even in the new society, a girl like her, in addition to himself, but also what means to rescue the mother? Every time she saw her mother fall ill, just thought to myself, If anyone can cure my mother, I am willing to sell him my own. But now arrayed in this basket of walnut eyes, and she could not help but unsettling to think that if the basket of walnuts to cure my mother, I was not put yourself - married Zhigang it? Now is the new society, the population can not be traded, so can not say

she thought to use to repay their Zhigang, but also inevitably think of the youngest. Speaking from the heart, she prefers the youngest of the basket of walnuts is sent, then all problems solved, she happily to himself,

severely criticized in the heart of her own, which in the end point of Zhigang as the youngest? Not that the point of short stature, no longer the youngest person that - But we look at a person, not should pay attention to aspects of his mind it? How can you look at appearance it?

but she almost at once refuted by their own, how can you say the youngest of the human consciousness is not as good Zhigang it? He does not also taking care of you? There, he was always someone else's obligation to repair clock repair pen repair of the table, their own money to buy parts, others never received a penny, which is not also the beauty of the soul of the performance?

Corps heard that he was their tree exploration model, since he was himself volunteered to field operations teams come, he would have been sub-headquarters in the provincial capital to work. City people stood not comfortable working environment, where this Shangougou to exploration, not the United States is also a spiritual person?

she cranky for a while, and laugh at themselves, others said the two men did not want to talk to friends, there was a you all? Perhaps, like others is to help you as Lei Feng, the results others kindly when you gave hepatopulmonary ass is really kind given no good newspaper, a good mud fight at good kitchen.

she decided to make shoes for the Zhigang, so his mother scolded him, lest he cold day fight barefoot. Mother's sewing basket, she knows there are a lot of good bedding, but not satisfied in the sole, there was not a good paste Baoxie upper mouth, so with semi-finished products such as shoes, she spent a few nights, can make a pair of shoes. Aunt

she rushes to find that pair of shoes to help make Zhigang, Aunt Joy eyes squint, and immediately have to find out the upper sole to her, again leads, thimble, find out what shoes cone to her, then stood looking at her lovingly Naxie Di.

moment and appreciate Mother said: is teaching, brought out the girl is talented. Buy a foot of black cloth, you can do two pairs of semi-upper. Find some old cloth, paste into the lining, you can do upper. Soles will own satisfaction, the hardest part is the shoes, the upper and the sole is sewn together, but also learned to fall quiet. She did most of the time are to wear their own black shoes, rainy day,cheap UGG boots, a faraway place, or what the military school, only wearing a pair of old Jiefang Xie. Her feet were very naive, and grow to 35 yards no longer, as if afraid she can not wear a pair of the same old Jiefang Xie.

Boyle said: Wear shoes made, they went to the husband a pair of shoes to wear it wants - smelling - the >
Jingqiu listening, endless shame, this pin must be passed down his father's landlord, her father's feet in the men also considered small, and quiet autumn my mother's feet is not small, we can see mother or the working people over there, my father is over there by the exploitation of peasant life, not on the farm, even the feet are smaller.

she was honest confession, said:

Boyle said: wait for the jealous people who see the landlord money, people struggle to find fault with people who - Aunt she thought it must be said deliberately, to test her again, should have to stand the test. She did not dare take ballast, only buried Naxie Di.

boil for two nights, Jing Zhigang shoes fall to do a good job, he call it a day back, Jing Qiu told him to try. Zhigang played basin of water, carefully wash his feet, and Gonger Jingzhi to put your foot in the shoe, called Huanhuan take a few newspapers to pad the ground, careful to walk on only a few steps.



Zhigang Hey just smiled: This is also where you Yeah, to -
every two days, the third sack of candy brought to the quiet autumn, showed that you treat your mother.

Jingqiu shocked: I had known this, I would not tell you I am not their home -

the way he saw her Liquciqiong to laugh: However, this medicine is not candy no effect. up: good or bad? The set of her own self-deprecating side had to come out again: someone said to you favors it? Like you came from, other people do not want you to repay this is still a big question mark.

Hawthorn Love (11)

people say, Tam static for some time in autumn and, finding nothing, big up courage, and would dare say a few words of the youngest. Big daddy just Aunt Aunt her family to a few days back, sister to her husband Yan Jia He will put Huanhuan also brought, in addition to static fall at home during the day, and nothing else.

third child after work to cook early and ran to help, he is not eating in the cafeteria to eat here. He told Jingqiu two, one light a fire, a stir-fry, with it and was understanding.

do oil, salt and rice crust youngest, he cooked a meal, first meal out with a basin Sheng, leaving the rice crust in pan, sprinkle with salt, cast oil, with the text for a kang, shovel it is fragrant and crisp rice crust. Jingqiu love does not address population, not altogether to eat dinner, eat rice crust, eat other people can not understand: do not eat lying white rice, eat rice crust, the city people are really weird ah.

Hidee see aunt was not at home, but also to talk about his boyfriend home to dinner. Jingqiu heard Aunt said, saying that men exchanges. Hidee I usually ran out to talk to him secretly dating, and now father and mother not at home, and Hidee goes on to blatantly

Jingqiu that goes on Hidee a watch on the handle to the quiet autumn look, proud to ask: Ten dollars! Her mother is almost three months salary. Hidee wearing a sheet, would not washed dishes, bowls would not wash, said fear of the water got to the table is going.

dinner, the third overall to the quiet autumn and take their food, Sheng Zhigang always a bowl of rice, some vegetables folder, it was gone. Finished, the bowl of a lost, just disappear, to go to bed when it is back.

evening, Hidee with the Hidee Xiufang estate separated by only a one high wall, on top of a pass, and that does not sound. Static fall in his room writing, and always hear the chirp Hidee laugh, like someone tickled her.

youngest to openly sit in quiet autumn room, to help her write the history of the village. Sometimes she was knitting a sweater, he sat opposite, holding the line group, to help her pay-off. God, he stood and left lying, and just stare at her, forgot to put line, she had twitched at the other end of yarn to remind him.

like he woke up as she pulled recovered, holding up an apology, released a long line, so that her organization.

Jingqiu whispered: : Her problem is not touched, touched on the chaos of a promise. Her forthright manner: up a lot. Static fall out of a bag of wool, see red, not red, not rose, not pink, is like In the red, she's most like this one red, she called it

but very few men still wear the color of the sweater, she was surprised and asked: is this color. Did not you say you want to see the tree bloom? ? She was a little understood, he must be bought for her, it is red. Sure enough, she heard him say: secretly read her true face of the sweater. Otherwise, how could he think of buying yarn for her?

hot day walking in the mountains, he had been off his coat, wearing only a sweater, but she has refused to take off clutching his coat will do. He asked:

he very consciously said: small and short, the hoop in the body. Her chest a little large, although the same bra with a small vest severely reined in, or it will be a group from the sweater out of the drum, sweaters and not cover the bottom, after the protrusion is really Alice, ugly death.

There is a saying among girls was that a girl's body good, is to see her on the wall, the body can not match exactly with the wall, if that figure is good, students have to correct straight. Jingqiu never match exactly matter sorted out the wall, facing wall stickers, something to withstand the front wall; back wall stickers, something to withstand the back wall, it has been the object of ridicule is the girl friends, called her

Jingqiu know my body well, very few sweaters in front of outsiders, so that exposed the ugly. Now she lay to the side to see the youngest to Sign off his coat and sweater, cotton-padded clothes to wear back then. She carefully turn the sweater front, holding in his hand.

first she saw the sweater he was still afraid of the negative and refused to bring him, and later told him the words of confused to completely forget about it and he took to help her sweater, she gave him Maybe he was then a secret peek at her sweater.

her sweater or her line of three or four years old when her mother bought. Her mother does not knit, woven asked people to buy the wool, the result of the wages paid, was also a lot of people off the line, only to her brother and two small knit sweater.

then she would knit, and put that sweater pulled down two small, synthetic one. Wore a few years, then dismantle, plus one thread into another organization. Two years, then dismantle, coupled with an inside thread and then woven. Finally, it becomes colorful, but she cleverly woven, others thought it was intentionally inflicted the kind of looked at the complex suit.

but because for too long, brittle wool has been very easy to become a bit of a short line. She also started to put two lines carefully rub together, so do not see the connection. Then see the connector is too much, rub rub numerous, it rolled a pimple forget.

so her sweater, from the front, very abstract, very enigmatic. However, if the turn look inside, covered with wire knots, as the great leader Chairman Mao, when wearing the kind of Jinggangshan Yang Piao, it must be the sheep's skin, because those are the zigzag of hair.

She thought he must have seen her sweater lump those lines, so only sympathize with her, bought a hawthorn red wool, and asked her to weave her own sweater. I do not know how, she thought of Lu Xun's novel about Wash ... ...

her angry, blame youngest: surprised and asked: Along the way she related to him that he should not have the chance to see her sweater opposite. Maybe he just thought it a good yarn color, with a hawthorn flower color, so I bought.

she quickly explained: > she was afraid of her angry, so she had a sense of pride, as if she could control his emotions the same. He is the children of cadres, but also so smart and capable, people have looked conscious, a bit like playing with him, watching him hit home, good confirmed her domination of his ability. She knew it well, very vain, so try to avoid doing so.

her wool wrap back to him: Also, as Samsam stood there, holding the yarn package and whispered: br> You despise? Look down on or leave as early as possible.

He stood there, a painful expression on his face and murmured: when, like so derisively said, Summer went out to do odd jobs, if not a day off a month, earn thirty-six dollars a month, month to put your money pay off. - what to do odd jobs? , anyway, what to do, or how is called odd jobs? special tube that's - called She talked about funny place, laughing, uphold laughed.

laughed a discount, only to find he did not laugh, stare her straight. She quickly explained: > He is a bit hoarse, said: , they might be injured, and pressed by a car how to do? did not do odd jobs, so very terrible to imagine doing odd jobs, but in fact - , palm live handlebars, cars rushed to the river will be carrying the man to go -. I have also seen how people on the construction site housing repair tiling, and fell from the scaffold - that - are very dangerous heavy live, do not re not dangerous and will not dry to the casual, formal workers are to be done. you shop and go live so dangerous, I - how to ease it? certainly do not trust your mother, right?
did not trust her mother, always worried about her doing odd jobs out injured, said the injured to do odd jobs, and even labor are not, that even if your life over. Some money is a small matter, a life is too serious. But she know a few things not small money, you do not then some money to buy back rice, you get to go hungry. Besides missing her family not just

other teachers often asked her mother to borrow money, often also carried on the whole situation got a salary, wages will begin to borrow money the next day. Her family is often the ticket to the people captive eggs, because the money to buy.

team that her brother to the countryside, the poor harvest, the educated youth who have asked their parents to fight to get money to buy rice valley, only food to eat, because the score is too low, one year is not enough to do the work points rations money.

these years, thanks to her go out and do odd jobs every summer, it can help home about stickers. She always comforted her mother:
now she has this sentimental see the third child, put this theory out against him.

but he will not listen, just eager to say: money, I have here, we engage in wild, relatively high wages, as well as field allowances. I have a deposit - and you first take it further - off, then I can give you every month thirty to fifty money - should be enough, right? She said with pride: and then also? not prepared to move back. At that time, no money my mother gave me a good ration, and how can they have money he owes you? This is some money - and you do not stubborn, you for some money and his own hurt, and life in bed, not worse you? She snappily said: She seems to have been stabbed in the heart of the same knife, and then not say anything, only whispered: piteously at her, she thought had previously raised a puppy, dog teams were caught, tied to the mouth, not yell, but also looking at her so piteously, as if that were taken or death one, ask her for help in the same.

Hawthorn Love (12)

Two days later, sister came back home and quiet. Hidee the Night, sister brought a colleague to ask the teacher Tian Jing Qiu, and asked how a man's Maoku weaving in front of the openings.

Jingqiu know how the open weave, but the field is not only asked the teacher how to weave a static population in autumn, but also asked her how high the mouth it is convenient to weave her husband relieve themselves. Autumn is a static organization learned from others that the opening, when woven, never go to reflect on that opening does. Now the teacher said Tian,

fields such as teacher while she was weaving the hole, while chatting with the sister: the middle child -. autumn girl to marry her second child, then your married here, and we knit for convenience, you can always ask you - , and people fall girl face and tender. not? fall girl? Azeri? that I have an idea, the exploration team to find one, they were inside the city. In time, autumn is the city girl who married, we have someone to knit, best of both worlds. Oh laugh: > static heard daring to fall out of one, just hope they are joking.

Tian teacher said: br> sister laughed and said: , did not realize that not only did not faint, but like a fly to the air, like the theater are not afraid of looking at his high station, and rejoiced to think: time has come. But her mind is only one sentence: know how long, and they said they did not understand the words but one. Until the teacher thought to go back to the field, it took Maoku look and found that the hole in the organization of the foot-long.

Tin teacher can not help laughing: Sister of the field teacher said: strange pity. She climbed into bed with a quilt over my head Zhuangshui. Although covered with a thick quilt, she was still trembling, not knowing it cold or fear, or something else.

hiding her yard, bitterly criticized the youngest: liar! Liar! You are at home with his fiancee, why do I want to do? That you do, is it a fiancee of another girl who can do it?

scolded her sad to realize that fraud is not what is the use of, this world is full of liars, also criticized die curse them, curse curse also hurt them. To blame only themselves to blame, blame yourself not the eyes, does not recognize a liar.

what happened that day in the mountains and scenes in my mind. At that time after time, just like watching movies, can not be stopped, click on the long list of camera flash later, the brain is completely confused, not knowing what they thought, do not know what to say, what to do.

In retrospect, it seems to be looking at a bunch of photos, each of them fixed a moment, may have saved a lot of shots, but the focus of the lens are in, you can see one by one, watched and evaluated side-examination.

youngest of those held her camera before, did not seem to take a photo, even if the shoot, she also doubled by. Back and forth back memories now, is the youngest to frighten her by saying he had a look like ghosts standing under the tree. Time together with her youngest, always had a faint feeling, as if their own sense of pride that has been introduced, the same holding force do not exist. Come back that night, when walking in the mountains, he admitted his disguise who held people's hands. No understand how it was? If you made a temper, that is, made its position clear, that she hated him do that. I really do not know why she would do such a silly thing, then see him no longer hold her hand, as if not more so, that he was angry, I do not know how did my heart to fear of it, no longer afraid of him Li her. Jingqiu know many such stories, but also witnessed the girls know this was unfortunate, so she has been very careful not to slip. Fortunately, she told him things no one knew what she had left him on the white handle black falls. So far, the worst is that she admitted she liked him hold her hand. But on that day call him to dinner, she had refused the request of his hand,UGG boots cheap, and should restore the situation to the right? Now he has his fiancee, must not and will not say this, I hope that this matter can be written off from her life. Do not know where she thought had seen the sentence: She can be asked by the education reform group of people a little money, they also go back later. Only their feelings, you can own hands, which she only discretionary things, so she must to do my own will to control your feelings. She can take his gratitude in return for others, can be as sympathetic to save a person, but she will not replace it with their own feelings of money or status. Stealthy, furtive, shameful! But she did not dare ask any more questions, ask, sure to suspect her sister, a girl, how so concerned about these things? He raised his head and looked at her helplessly, as if to ask what happened. She knew they did not know that you lie to someone outside it? Advance also think that it is not difficult things to do, met him, she can really talk to him fiercely. He looked at her piteously, when her heart is very strong, seems unmoved.